My goodness; first post of the year and we are almost a month in already. 2009 was a blur; a crazy, amazing blur. I didn't even see it pass. It feels like just yesterday I was sitting on the bus, clutching my brand new textbook and clean notebooks, heading towards my first Social Science lecture. Although I was scared stupid, at the same time I knew that the year that followed would be a new start for me. I didn't have to be the awkward, shy kid I was in high school. I think every first year uni student goes through this blissful realization. Just as expected, I got to be whoever I wanted. I went through a few things last year that helped me re establish what I wanted to believe in and what kind of person I wanted everyone to see me as. I'm very happy to say that in the past few months my faith in God has become a lot stronger and I've relied on his help which of course payed off and worked out for the better, as it always does. I am hoping that perhaps this year I'll find a church where I can fit in. I am not sure how my family will react to this idea because as they are still religious personally, in the past we had pretty much given up on the idealistic 'church community' concept after some bad experiences. But now I feel myself drifting away from my religion and seeing Sabbaths as Saturdays, any other day of the week. I don't want this to happen. So... we'll see what happens.
There have been so many other positive traits that I wanted to take on board as well as some that I wanted to lose in the past year. However near the end, around November and December I realised the most important thing. Changing and bettering yourself is not an instant - just add water – process. I was starting to feel a bit annoyed that nothing had changed very much in the last 12 months. But once I thought about it, I have changed for the better. Not necessarily in leaps and bounds but more like just little things that people around me and I myself began to notice. This, I've finally realised, is enough and all that can be asked of one mere human. So this is the new mentality of 2010 – expecting everything to fall into place immediately is so two years ago. So this year one of my closest friends Kirsty and I have a joint resolutions list which is an excellent way to ensure that we both stick to these resolutions. The general theme behind them is nothing too specific and making our goals as realistic and attainable as possible. We came up with them one afternoon in December on the steps of Salisbury station. That was a really good day by the way :3 So yeah, highly looking forward to the year ahead.
Now some news just in which some of you have already heard about; in the next month or two ahead I'm moving house and going to live away from home for the first time in my life. I am very excited about this but naturally a tad bit nervous. It will definitely be a good experience. I am looking at the possible new address tomorrow morning. It has all happened so quickly. It was only yesterday afternoon that my mum and I decided it would be a good experience for me and started looking on realestate.com and now less than a day later, I have a potential new home. I can't wait to see if this place really is as good as it seems. I have also been applying for jobs like my life depends on it today. I already work at a bat at Oxley like a lot of you know but I will need more income. So far I've applied for a whole lot of positions that look so good. Hopefully this will all work out.
That's it for a while I suppose. I have to work tonight - > < very nervous. Oh wait, did I already mention this. Well I'm going to say it again because I am quite nervous about it. Hopefully I will do alright
Till next time readers xx D
P.S. Have a look at Evermore's new song and video 'Underground' on their You Tube page if you are interested. Naturally they have done an amazing job again. Cant wait till the album's release and Evermarch's arrival : D YAYA
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