So I feel very slack right now. All my friends who happen to have blogs are so good at keeping them up to date. Unlike me, who posts whenever she remembers, Monique and Jayne especially do such a good job at keeping everyone up to date. And I suppose there is no purpose behind a blog unless you are going to update it, well – a lot more often than I update mine. Seeing as quite a few of my friends live a fair distance away, this would be a good way for us to stay in each other's lives. See this is one reason why we love the internet. So that being said…
Today is one of those days in spring where it might as well be summer. Thank goodness for the breeze out here. And I say out here because yes, I have finally discovered the joy of those little internet connection in a USB things. I have to admit though that although I do whinge a little about summer heat, I do love the fact that summer seems to bring out the smell of the white blossoms right outside the kitchen and my bedroom even more. I have got YouTube up as well so I can have Joe Hisaishi's 'View Of Silence' playing. I'm half considering making myself a ice coffee but considering I promised myself that today I take this diet Kirsten and I are trying seriously, water seems to be the better option. Today I plan to clean the entire house from top to bottom before my family begins to arrive home. Then spend the rest of the day trying to imprint strange yet oh so intriguing characters that apparently mean something into my brain. For those who are not used to my somewhat odd way of expressing myself, that's kanji practice. Why couldn't I have just said that? [haha] Well I wouldn't be myself if I had put it that way. =)
I have to say that I've been on a roll assessment-wise the past few weeks and if I was being entirely honest I have gotten away very easily with a slack attitude this semester. Thank you Mr. Karma. I do realize that I am very lucky that I have put in minimal effort and gotten credits and distinctions in return; certainly don't expect to get away with it again next year. I know Kirsten is going to be on my case about study as I promised her that I'd be on hers. But just so I can have my moment of glory, I have recently: received 34 out of 35 for a Japanese culture essay that I wrote the day before, got a credit for an oral that I was forced to wing [special thanks to my laptop for that] and completed two fairly straightforward exams - [I'm not going to say easy because they were not really]. So as you can imagine, I'm very happy about this. I'm also really looking forward to my 2nd Language Teaching classes next year as well as work experience in a real language school, God willing. I'm also thrilled that my mum and step-dad are finally back together and seeing my mum happy again is a huge weight off my shoulders. It is so nice to have a good father figure after having a not so good biological one my entire life. I can honestly say that I have much more respect and common ground with my step dad than my real one.
As for all the petty relationship dramas that I have had recently, I'm happily pushing my insecurities and overly stressing brain out of my life and just taking it as it comes. I have hurt some good friends and put others in unnecessarily difficult positions. I highly doubt either of them are reading this but I'm still sorry. We're starting again on a level playing field and I'll try not to let ridiculous, minor things get in the way this time. It's funny how differently I am approaching this year ahead as opposed to every other birthday I have had since about 14 or 15. Every year I would promise myself that I would be totally different, convinced that I couldn't ever possibly be happy and accepted as myself. But come on, seriously? I've believe now that it is humanly impossible to completely change your life, personality, everything about you around. We're born the way we are; we think the way we think, we like what we like etc. so why fight it? So this year, with a surprisingly small amount of effort, I have changed my attitude. There are some things that I need to change hence the diet etc. but essentially I'm not going to try become something else. I feel like I'm rambling but anyway…
At my 20th I was in a much happier place. I've surrounded myself with some amazing people and gotten rid of the toxic ones that keep me in the past. University and TAFE I imagine have done wonders for me in more ways than just academics. So right now I've got Light Surrounding You featuring The Connections Choir from when they toured Australia. Making me wish I'd been at that concert to see it live and feel very impatient for March 2010 when I can catch up with Jon, Pete, Dann and hopefully Calvin too if his still hanging around.
Will be an excellent year! x D
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